we're already connected
aren't we?
let's make
a beautiful world!

09/05/25
i like spiders and rain.
i like that hour where everything is blue,
but the windows of every house are so
orange and warm.
i like thick snow.
i like the morning light gleaming on iridescent things that hang in my window.
i like how over time you get familiar with the sounds of a place - who is walking, how they breathe. identifying someone in silence. the sound of a bus outside, the thick elongated hum.
i like the feeling of love that is you visiting the insides of my chest cavity.
i like the garbled sound of people far-away through glass, reduced to an incomprehensible chirping.
i like any space that is alive, in whatever way it may be. i guess that's every space, if you look.
i like the hum of machines, i like the way they breathe.
i like it when the machine feels like an extension of my own body.
i like the feeling of belief, an inviolable certainty.
i like offrun water forming swirls of bubbles on the sidewalk.
i like plants peeking through cracks in the walls.
i like feeling like an alien when i walk around others.

26/05/25
i like the sound of bells. any bell.
i like the stones and the feeling of ancient within them.
i like wet moss. i like the tiny purple flowers growing out of the wall, shaped too, like bells.
i like that every day will never be the same.
i like that every day will never exist again.
even if you make the same motions.
i like the half-dream feeling of aligning with this space. every morning head dreamyfull and fuzzy, listening to the patterns that are the sounds outside. a car driving through a puddle on the ground. sweet hiss of it.
i like to create a very small girl,
small enough to fit inside my palm.
i like the feeling of watching her exist from nothing.
she is two pieces of fabric, fraying at the edges.
she is her skin now, sewn together at the edges.
she is the feeling of her insides being poked inside of her.
i will fill her with softness. and then she is alive, with me. i like my friends who do not breathe.

13/06/25
i like it when there is ENERGY !!!!!!!!!
i like it whEN the energy is bIG!!!
i like 13!
the number 13,
friday the 13th of JXXX! just after a sweet strawberried moon!!
i like it when a day is special and i find energy all inside everywhere all over the mE!!!!
i like videogames i want to make a videos game..!!
i like it when an imaginary place is a real place that can change your life forever!!
i like it when i make memories inside a world someone else made!
i like to play make-believe,
i like to make belief ,
i like to make and i like to believe.
i like deer especially white ones!
i like every animal (almost) but i think deers are one of the most loveliest favourites,
so ethereal but also silly, perfect balance,
sometimes scary, timidgraceful.
shy and sweet and wild.
i like their legs like ribbons! fawnspot flanks! nimble does!
cervine angels. the shedding of the antler velvet.
a yearly goring.
we're all red inside, huh?


it feels like time is caressing me
so many different versions of me here at once
lemonade which is very bitter but also sweet
i avoid stepping on the daisies

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you are still dreaming
the dream is dreaming you back

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holy decay, thick forgiveness. the sweetness that outlives its innocence

god as caretaker, god as smotherer, god as breast

you kneel not in fear, but in hunger
comfort layered over violation, to be so nourished and unsettled

milk is the bodies gift before it knows the child is seperate

i will drink whatever you become

we grow eachother, creeping towards the sun.
we sharpen our teeth. we learn to be soft and sharp and soft again.
sometimes i bite you.
sometimes you bite me.
soft tongues on small wounds.
viciously gentle, gently vicious.
all with love.